- I have been the new girl in school
- I felt alone
- At my old school, I was considered a whore and I was still a virgin
- I felt empty
- I know what its like to feel sexually violated
- I tried to tell my school counselor about the physical abuse in my home and she did nothing but call my parents (the people who abused me)
- I had some pretty crappy friends who totally stabbed my back and hurt me
- I didn’t care about anything anymore
- I tried to reach out to friends and throw hints to family but no one listened
- I was told I was just trying to seek attention
- I went to parties to try to feel happy by getting drunk
- I fell in love with a guy who was popular and he cheated on me and broke my heart and didn’t care at all that I was in pain
- I eventually chased after any boy that would pay attention to me so I could feel loved; even if it was just a little
All of these reasons and I’m here to tell you that I am still alive.
But there is one big difference between me and Hannah Baker:
I found Jesus
Even though I felt like everyone else around me didn’t care, God did. Even though I felt empty and alone, He was there waiting for me to cry out for Him and seek Him. Even though I felt violated and defiled, He renewed me. I no longer feel empty, gross, alone, depressed or like an outcast. Once I gave my life to Him, He has completely changed it.
You are not alone. You do have worth. It gets better. God DOES love you. He is there for you. He thinks you are more special than anything. He desires you more than that boy who broke your heart and cherishes you more than that friend who turned their back on you.
YOU ARE ENOUGH
- Ephesians 2:4-5 But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us, evenwhen we were dead in our trespasses, made us alive together with Christ— by grace you have been saved—
- 2 Corinthians 12:10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
- Hebrews 4:16 Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need
For all have sinned and fall short of the Glory of God;
A friend and I got into an argument and out of anger and I said some things I shouldn’t have said. I went a little too far with a boy when I promised God I wouldn’t do it anymore. I drank a little too much when I knew God didn’t want me to do that. These are just a few examples of the mistakes I’ve made as a Christian and after each act, I felt horrible. I felt like God didn’t love me and that he was angry at me. I felt like a failure; that I let him down. Continue reading
When Hagen and I first started dating, it was that constant butterfly feeling. His kisses made me drunk and holding his hand made my heart race. What an exhilarating experience!
Then one day…those feelings were gone. The butterflies flew away and I was left wondering if I even loved him anymore. Continue reading
9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. -2 Corinthians 12:9-11 Continue reading
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
I was a junior in high school and I overheard someone at the table next to me say, “She got big after she graduated.” Continue reading
I was depressed and hollow. I felt like an empty shell. I was revolving my life around a boy who broke my heart. I didn’t really have God in my life and I was too concerned about being popular to care. Being a Christian wasn’t exactly the “cool” thing. Christians don’t drink and go to parties but thats what everyone else was doing so who cared right? Continue reading
This past year, I’ve talked to a lot of people who seem to be confused on what a Christian really is. They get mad and assume Christians are people with a “get out of jail free card” or someone who thinks they are better than the rest. I’m here to tell you that these two assumptions are far from what a real Christian is supposed to look like. Continue reading